Turn on pretty much any radio station these days and you're going to hear the latest from the amazing Adele, "Hello." It's everywhere. And I'm not mad about it.
You might have heard it and thought of your ex. In fact, I heard somewhere that a poll was conducted and a majority of people were inspired to contact an ex (bad idea, amirite?) after listing to "Hello." Crazy, right? More so because it turns out the song not actually be about one of Adele's exes. In fact, it sounds like she actually wrote it about making up with her former self. She talks about wishing away her life, wishing she was something else somewhere else rather than enjoying the here and now.
And I can totally relate.
Listening to the song ever since finding that out has completely changed it for me. With all of the changes in my life in the last year or so and given that I'm leaving my twenties behind me (something I'm struggling with a little), I've been having a lot of similar reflections and I've decided to share some of these thoughts with you.
I'M SORRY FOR BREAKING YOUR HEARTFor the better part of my twenties, this blog has been a creative outlet for me for everything from random rants about Myspace to sharing my personal style to DIY projects and more. I haven't posted much in the last year or so; some of the reasons are obvious, other less so, but this blog has always been a space for me to share the things that weigh on my mind. As the years wore on, I became more and more closed off because of thinking things like, "Who am I to act like I'm an expert on anything?" and, more recently, having mom guilt and worried about people who like to judge how other people parent. But early twenties Adiel would probably be so pissed at this line of thinking and I kinda hate to think I let her down by not just being me to the fullest extent and making the most of my youth.
I'M IN CALIFORNIA DREAMINGI don't think my life has turned out the way I thought it would as I entered my twenties. At that time, there is no way I would have ever thought I would leave behind everything and everyone I knew in Utah to take a job in a California. There is no way I could have imagined that I'd be working at the intersection of two of my biggest passions, fashion and tech.
But I am.
And now I'm coming out on the other side of this decade reflecting on who I was back then, my life's experiences, and what I have now. It may not be what I was dreaming of back then, but younger Adiel would have been totally stoked about the opportunities I have now. So I don't want to take that for granted dreaming of everything else that could have been or could be.
IT'S NO SECRET THAT BOTH OF US ARE RUNNING OUT OF TIMEI'm turning 30. There, I said it.
So, I think it's time for me, too, to make up with my former self. I don't want to wait to appreciate what I had until it's gone. I want to acknowledge who I am and what I have in the here and now.
Hello, it's me.
So much love for Adele, am I right?